An insane light.

Its the desire to be a better person that makes us do things which make others feel great, thus giving us a sense of gratification. A satisfaction to have influenced someone in a good way.The action is not initiated by a action plan. It is instead kickstarted by a deep desire. To state an example. I have a deep desire to uplift women in need. Based on my experience when I was once on the street for some really strange reasons, I understand a need for a woman to have safe shelter, edible clean food, some money at her disposal and something to keep her busy. 

Most often when women desire to do something with their time besides what is expected from her within family, she is cut off from any access to any resource, which could aid her to fulfil her desire. In some families phones are confiscated, in some girls are locked in a room without food to get them to bend in a way, that is suitable for the family dynamics. There is a general "bad name" associated with women who move away from family and wish to live independently . They are looked upon as loose, available , rebellious and sometimes even mad. 

Women can tend to appear eccentric when they feel unsafe, insecure and generally as if no one was there holding umbrella for them. Our culture of protecting the women disables their natural flight or fight reflexes. They become dependant on someone to fend for them. Most often the protector has their own agenda behind doing so and tends to cause a sense of wanting to break free to experience life for oneself.

A little resistance can trigger an awesome flight of evolution. 

The irony is that women are made to live under pressure of constant threat to their safety and sanity , but when they word their fears out, they are disregarded as mentally unstable or paranoid. The restrictions are laid down even thicker after that. The ones who escape are the ones who wear saree while stepping out of home and change into a comfortable pair of shorts in the nearest public washroom!

Is'nt that promoting and enabling the existence of double standards?

No wonder a lot of women from the elder generation , women who lived their life without access to the freedom called internet ,are frustrated beyond comprehension. They are the crabbiest of them all. Like that aunty in Gurugram! Pouring out her life's frustration upon being triggered by the audacity and guts of a young girl, who chose to wear whatever she desired. The young ones liberty angered the lady who has probably lived her life being told what to do and how to do it. She was probably told that everyone who sees her wishes to sleep with her and hence she must cover herself up to appear like a "good girl".

Its these words that trigger another monster in me. What exactly is a good girl?

Is she good if she plays her role.As if her presence ensures  a checklist of services.

Ive heard Sharp women tend to be divorced

(They tear the ducts apart )

Women with a spark, get divorced.

(They burn the men within a flicker )

Push over women get divorced 

(They push their men around)

Or didn't let him do the pushing.

Angry women die alone.

Are you planning to merge your soul before your time arrives?

Sad women are alone.

If understanding were common,

They wouldn't be.

Nagging women are cheated on 

Non nagging ones don't pay enough attention it seems.

The types are endless. The point is ,women by nature are considered to be tender and loving , by that right the treatment towards them should  be in order to generate that warmth in them for them to reflect it outwardly. A well nourished person glows. 

If they receive threat of danger and ingrained dependancy of resources , they too would reflect back signs of suppression and anger. Its obvious. 

A woman is not a service provider. A service provider is a service provider.         BY CHOICE. A woman's place in ones life shouldn't have to guarantee clean clothes and yummy food. 

I have male relatives who are excellent chefs and do not shy away from throwing the garbage or picking up a mop. Being aware of being a part of a fully functional household should mean you have a role to play . Not that it is owed to you and magic fairies clean the bed and bring clean ironed clothes back in the cupboard after having left them on the bathroom floor. I used to think that until my mom (the Homemaker) passed away. She had everything under her magic control of command. I didn't  realise she had to dedicate her entire life to doing this to perfection. Its only after the conductor was gone that the orchestra crumbled. A year fast forward Im thinking about any sort of work as effort. An effort to be made by choice. Not by force. Its exploitation if its forced. Regardless of it being coerced by others or by self. 

Okay thats it for now. :)