The reality seeker.

I have often wondered, about what it is ,that Im searching for ! when I'm seeking "Something Real"
Iv evaded many  conversations , some casual some with purpose- for the simple reason that, its failed to reach any chord in me.

But when something truly strikes the chord in me , I find myself willing, to dump the scene- and run !! as far as my mind would take me.

Is that the fear of attachment.?

Its a paradox. Am I seeking to attach or am I seeking to detach?

Paramacharya propagates Detachment to be the path to liberation. But how to attain detachment without the initial attachment?

Does that mean we must attach ourselves to all and sundry with the mental preparation to detach?
Why attach then?

Oh! the learn and unlearn theory. .. sigh.. the universe is indeed a playground. One battle after another.

After a point I find myself unwilling to carry out a conversation knowing very well everything we do is to bide our time here..

We read of theories, we make out theorems ,to validate our thought processes. We look for competition and go into modes of jealousy, then harbour feelings of self hate.

If emotions are nothing more than cues of a energy , then why is it so difficult for us to simply take it so? why do we wish to dwell upon emotions ? hold on to them for the fear of losing them if we were to let go?

So many whys .

If I were to say ,that the answers are available. All it takes is the initiative ,to move our consciousness , or let it move or be swayed by itself. Would that make any difference to the constant questioning? or would it just solve the current issue and make way for more queries.

Ok so one thing established.

Our minds are filled with never ending questions...

Who has seen afterlife for us to be afraid of landing up in hell or the imaginary visions of heaven

Arent heaven and hell both existing on this very planet ? just look at a picture of a landscape, or just read the news paper. from beauty to horror, we have it all!!

Both are equally accesable with the power of our choice... our Intention.

Is it neccessary to BELIEVE in something? does it vanish if we dont?

Well, to believe or not is a matter of choice. Belief gives us a hope. a little shiny star on our consciousness. Once the goal is attained the physical manifestation of the star drops, the shine stays on...

What about those who live in their khayali pulao? ( dream mousse wud do too)

For those who wish to live in their thought imprints generally find themselves isolated from the happenings of their  reality and feel lost and isolated within themselves and amongst people as well. They are constantly seeking out the next person/object to attach themselves to.

My conclusion to this thought process is that, it is necessary to allow the process of attachment to manifest itself. Once the vibes are neutralised between the parties concerned, the attachment becomes less strong, in its hold over another. Gradually, and consciously allowing the detachment to take place , frees the mind of the exhilaration or the pangs of guilt associated with meeting or separation.

OM :)